Mickey Mouse Watch

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My dear friend Ashley is getting married next month. Earlier this morning, she asked me to please select a few of my favorite old photographs of the two of us and to send them to her for a project her future Mother-in-Law is working on. I came home from work and started digging through my old trunk.

I found so many great photos from the fun times my friends and I once shared. I texted a few of my friends a sample or two of what I was sorting through. A couple friends were probably a little taken aback and/or embarrassed of the random blasts from the past. But, maybe that was one of the reasons I held on to the photos! 

While sorting through the contents of a particular box, I stumbled upon an envelope labeled Friends and Family. I found many memories stored inside the envelope and a few were items I have been searching for for quite some time. 

One of the items for which I have searched far and wide is the Mickey Mouse watch pictured above. I became so excited when I discovered the black straps and silver edges of the face of the tiny, worn, piece. Immediately, I called my mother and apologized for accusing her of throwing the watch away.

The item is so special to me, mostly because I have a very clear memory of where I was and the person I was with when the watch was given to me: I was with my mother at a mall in Cincinnati, Ohio. At the time, I must have been in kindergarten or somewhere around that age.

While we were walking around, I saw the watch on display and said aloud how badly I needed to own it. My mother asked the clerk how much the watch would cost. 30 dollars was the answer.

At the time, I thought 30 bucks was an absurd amount of money and I felt certain my family could not afford such a price. The look on my mother’s face said she knew what I was thinking and and she said, “We’ll take it.” I felt a combination of utter guilt and unequivocal materialism mix inside my little body. I wore the watch all the time.

At times, I can imagine what it must feel like to be a hoarder. I have so many sentimental items and letters from friends and family I would be so devastated to lose. Looking through my old trunk, I selected an item or two a wise man would probably toss out. After securing these items back in their spots, I began to dig for another envelope. 

Z

 

Fleurs pour mon ami

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Periwinkle
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Plumbago
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Lantana
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Crape Myrtle
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Morning Dew on the Wandering Jew

I went around the yard today and took pictures of flowers for my sweet Alyssa. Today is her birthday. She is one of my friends who helped inspire me to start my blog, so I could not let the day pass without finding her some pretty things.

Love you,

Z

One Lucky Dude

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When life gets me down, I have found one thing that never fails to ease the pain is to focus on the positive and not so much on the negative aspects of my life. Something that always brings me back to realizing I am one lucky dude is to think about my amazing friends and family. I have always believed that I have the best in the entire world. 

My friends are the reason I am the person I am today and why I am not completely insane. Any time I need advice or feel lonely, I have a wonderful support system to turn to. While I know I am not perfect, my friends have always accepted my imperfections and have forgiven me when I sought forgiveness. I have always tried to do the same.

My family always proves that unconditional love does exist and we always have each other’s backs. The truth is, I consider my family my friends and my friends my family. The lines between the two are quite blurred. And I love that. 

The other night, I was texting back and forth with my friend Jerielle. We were writing to each other about how much we miss performing. At one point, she mentioned that she wants to write sketch comedy with me. We ended up sending each other the most encouraging words, concerning each other’s talent and potential. I started thinking about how awesome it is to have artistic and gifted people in my life who I so badly want to see succeed and who really want me to succeed as well. I meant every word I said when I told her how much I miss our voices singing together. I love that soprano!

The painting I included above is one my Grandma Jean had framed for me yesterday. She has always been such a great painter. She and I painted this piece together when I was little and had just moved to Georgia from Ohio. She pretty much held my hand for the bits that I contributed, but I remember feeling like I knew how to paint afterwards. She has told me many times that she remembers me, when I was young, encouraging her to paint more and pushing her forward with her art. I don’t really remember what I said, but I do know how passionate I can be when someone I love has such potential; I always appreciate when a friend or family member pushes me forward in that way, too.

In a world where it is so easy to turn on the television, look at social media, or pick up a newspaper and see negativity and crap, I am so happy to have a team who all make it very easy to find optimism and love. They are the best. I am just so grateful.

Z


“It’s been so nice to have your brand of humor back in my life. I’ve been starved for it.”
– Liz Daggar, to me, at Black Horse Pub in Brooklyn. 07/05/16

Art, Wine, and Cupcakes

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Last weekend, I went to Atlanta to celebrate my awesome friend Jessica’s birthday. I originally had my heart set on having a party for her, but the planning was futile. Instead, she decided she wanted some of her closest friends to join her for a painting class at a place called Just for Giggles. I did not think I would enjoy myself. 

What I imagined was a class full of a bunch of strangers and all of us struggling to keep up with the instructor, whose backside we would see the entire time, while struggling to create a replica of what he or she created. The class really could not have been any different.

The first thing we were instructed to do was to choose a painting off the wall. I was so glad to have a choice in what I painted and to be allowed to customize the one I chose. Secondly, the instructor walked around the entire time, could not have been any more friendly, and gave excellent advice on how to proceed. Oh, and there was a ton of wine and cupcakes!

Watching my friends get so excited to paint was totally worth the money. I ended up getting so focused on what I was doing that I had to keep reminding myself to get up and walk around. I even realized a few times that I was neglecting my rosé! Unheard of. 

Art is just the best thing in the world. I would totally go to a painting class again and I’m already champing at the bit to create more art. Here is the painting of birch trees I ended up with on Saturday:

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For My Non-White Friends

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Lately, I have been so astounded by the news. Every day seems to bring another handful of stories that leave me feeling disappointed and sad. I have a very diverse, open-minded group of friends who, at times, make it easy to stay in the dark on certain issues that seem to be plaguing our country. Stepping into the light burns a bit at first, but it has become necessary.

Unnecessary, hate-fueled shootings and instances of racism are becoming entirely too commonplace. I just read that an old Korean American roommate of mine was called a “chink” at the AHRC New York City Foundation by a janitor upon his arrival and the company actually allowed and made excuses for the incident. Unacceptable. 

I live in what is often referred to as the “greatest country in the world.” One would expect its citizens to be comprised of mostly those who have the ability to take a look in the mirror and make edits if what they see reflects traits such as unkind or hateful. I have very little tolerance for people who are jerks just to be jerks. 

When I was a little boy, I used to wonder how in the world the hate in the world would ever end. I decided the answer might be to just wait until the older generations die out. Now, I’m not so sure. At the end of the day, I can only hope and pray for sensibility and love to persevere. 

Enough is enough. 

Z

Handwritten

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Here is another Zaiku:

Two hands — both employed:
One hand to do the writing,
The other holds notes. 

• A little something I wrote to give gratitude to the pen and paper I call my hands. Never have I ever had a better tool for making sure I don’t forget something.

Returning Home

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Two Worlds, with complementary cores

Today is my last full day on my trip home to Brooklyn. I have really enjoyed seeing my friends and the places I love to see so much. The feeling of knowing some things have not changed is simply wonderful.  I am not ready to say “Goodbye,” but I rarely am.

The first night here, I had an unplanned Art Night with Liz and her friend James. We became quiet and focused on our own art. I was reminded of how much I miss these nights. Liz and I created so many fun projects when I lived here and I loved being brought back to the memories.

Above is the drawing I finished at the apartment.

Following the Sun

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A Gowanus Sunset

Sometimes, when I ride my bike, run a vacuum cleaner, ride a lawnmower, or something similar, I will get a tune in my head. I had one pop into my head the other day. So, I came home and wrote it down. It’s not a finished product, but I do love singing on my bike. Just one of the many things I love about riding. Here was the latest:

Following the Sun

I’m following the sun
Feet upon the pedals
You know I’ve got to run
As far as I am able
Tonight

And if I should fall
Wheels, still turning
Gravel in my knees
I’ll stand up
I’ll take a look around
Then jump back on
And keep following
Right along

When did I decide
To let nightfall come easy?
Darkness sleeps behind me
Now, a gust of wind brings
All the light
In front of me

I’m following the sun
Feet upon the pedals
You know I’ve got to run
As far as I am able
Tonight

*Dedicated to TL and Liz, my 2 favorite bikers.

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Au revoir, FB.

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Earlier this week, I found myself getting very aggravated with many of the posts I was seeing on Facebook. I couldn’t help but look and was so surprised to see how many of my “friends” have such different views than my own. Normally, I embrace diversity; but, after the tragic shooting in Orlando, I was not in the mood. Facebook should be for posting vacation pictures and making one’s life look 10 times better than the barely bearable shit show that actually exists. Instead, what it had become had me wanting to throw my phone in the toilet.

I deactivated my account. As far as how long this will last goes, I cannot say. What I can say is that I have attempted to open the app on my iPhone a ridiculous amount of times — completely out of habit. The habit is what I am taking a necessary break from. And the opinions. I’m tired of reading opinions. I’d rather see pictures of everyone’s annoying children any day than have to expose myself to another second of their opinions.

Instagram will be my stand-in. At least there is more purity there. As stated, I could be back on the FB train tomorrow, but the trial separation feels nice today. Hopefully, when and if I do activate my account again, there will be less of the smug and more of the pug (I’m a big fan of all the pet pictures). If not, I foresee an on-again off-again sort of relationship forming.

That’s all for now. Gotta go and figure out how in the world to use Snapchat!

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